Story of deconversion

[Wednesday]

I'll write my down, when I'm less tired, more coherent and don't have to spellcheck a thousand times.

But, meanwhile, I'd love to hear your stories, it's fascinating! Let it go.

[Polonium]

I didn't agree with any world religions and formed my own world views that happened to have no gods in it that I felt followed what I saw as logical. They continue to change until this day. I started with Catholicism and went through every world view I could find, big or small.

It probably started when I first realized how much I didn't like religion trying to take control of my morality. I found the two separate.

[inflammatory writ]

I even remember as a kid going to CCD (Catholic education one night a week from approx. age 6-16 preparing you for communion, confirmation, etc.) thinking that it was all just a bit too ridiculous to actually be true. By the time I was a teenager, the 'faith' was completely gone. It, however, felt liberating as opposed to say, something missing. Everything just seemed/seems so, well, silly about organized religion. Interesting stuff no doubt, but silly.

[Aupmanyav]

I was loosely theist, a theist but thinking grandfather, Buddha, Bertrand Russel, and Fritjof Capra made me an atheist, Sankara made me an 'advaitist'. So I am now an atheist 'advaitist' hindu.

[Hallie]

Super abridged version:

Myself, I had a meltdown. Wednesday might remember it. I just felt lied to, and since I placed so much of my identity in my Pentecostal faith, I didn't know who I was anymore. This prompted a whole mess of conversions, reversions, more crises of faith, more meltdowns, before I finally decided to give searching for spiritual answers.

Once I stopped searching for truth, truth found me, but by that time I was content with myself. :)