my heart is on fire! My soul's like a wheel that's turnin'! My love is alive!!

[Ergo]

Um... hi. not been around for awhile, just checkin' in... What's new widcha?? How's th' weather??

Ummmm... You know ::coff, coff:: I think I might be falling in love. I think it's scarin' th' hell outta me. I think I wanna talk about it. I think... Oh, crap, I think I'm embarassed. :uh: I think I'm going to go downstairs and make coffee... Maybe I'll hide under the table while I'm there...

[evearael]

Awww! That's so sweet! Good luck!

[Dub C]

Love is great! It is always scary to put your heart out on the line! Tell us what you are going through!

[Ergo]

Weeell, Dub, 'cuz I likes ya, I'll try to hit on th' high points. But this is totally emotional, not intellectual. I can't put it in words unless you allow me to speak in poetry and metaphor using either sentence fragments or run-ons. As I put it to a friend of mine today:

Emotionally I really am on fire. I can FEEL a sensation in my chest, across my arms, in my belly, in my groin. It's a physical sensation of heat and ache. Sometimes I want to stop it; sometimes I want to let it flow over me and suck me under with the tow; see what happens if I let myself drown in it-- see where I come out. I'm scared. I'm excited. I'm open. I'm vulnerable. I'm psychically naked. I'm worried. I'm horny. I'm starved for human companionship and touch. I want someone near by, to lay with and feel their heat, to stave off the Darkness. I want to spend an hour just kissing. I want to brush hair, I want to touch skin, I want to lie inches away from someone, my arm under their neck and just stare into thier eyes without saying anything. I want someone to lie on top of me, feeling the pressure and heat of their body and their mouth against mine. I want to laugh, I want to yell, I want to scream, I want to cry.

I've got another analogy based on visuals from the Pirates movie and one from George C. Scott's Christmas Carol... anyone wanna hear those??